A fEw YeArS lAtEr

Hello there
I am in London currently.
Strugling to stay sane amidst all the panic.
Living next to a cemetery surely helps my crippling depression.

I want to go home, but I also like living in a civilized country so I have a bit of an emotional contradiction.

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Home Sweet Home

   Finally I'm back from Bulgaria.
The view is beautiful and the sea is refreshing (especially after 10 years of being stuck in this godforsaken country). However, 7 days of  sharing a room with my sis,the lack of spare money and internet and the loud noise all night long have taken their toll on me,making me bored out of my mind and tired af. At least i had books. And food. They helped me survive.

So I'm glad to be back in my little cave of wi-fi.

Beautiful,beautiful home. How glad i am to be back in my isolation,undisturbed and content in my zone of comfort.

      Aaaaaaaaaaaand now it's ranting time.

First things first,My birthday is in 5 days. I'll be 18,isn't that wonderful? 

But

I've got no clue what to do and how to make it entertaining.

Maybe i should just go there and drink? Maybe meet my friends? Or rather,should i spend a day in isolation?  

I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEAGODDAMMIT

 

help me

Also,I got accepted into Uni which is cool but how to survive there?

I don't know the first thing about socialization. I just....DERP.

Every.Time.

..ugh...

As a third,I need to lose weight,but for some reason i just can't get to it.

I realise that it's something i want and should do,but i keep finding excuses and never actually do what needs to be done.

How do i start??

Well,that's about it,see you guys next time ))

Talking to nonexitent internet listeners feels as good without the motivation and self-esteem damage so i'm gonna do just that. Thanks for being here in my delusions.

Love ya

How ironic

I have met him again today and color me confused because i don't get him at all.
Mi-a scris. Inteleg ca doar din plictiseala,but still.
Statea afara cu colega de lucru. Vorbeau. Let's call her Kuma.
She's obviously in love with him. What a blind and clueless man.
A handshake later i was trying my best not to smile when i looked at him. Never thought faking a smile is easier than trying to suppress it..
He was just bored,that is all. There is no special meaning behind it. He sees me as an entertaining creature,a pet who's fun to watch.
And it would have been fine. Honestly.
He was installing a standing pole and it hit the ceiling,dislocating a tile, and he struggled to put it back. Me and Kuma were watching and i started smiling really big/borderline laughing. When i looked at him,he was also smiling wide and looking straight at me. It was his usual,sweet smile. The smile i fell for. Why look at me, though? She was there too.
Maybe i'm jut overthinking. There is no meaning behind it,probably.
He's just unaware of the effects he has on me.
Get closer to me or avoid me like the plague. Fill your mind with thoughts of me or exile me from your life. Give me all your attention or deprive me of any. Just please...don't treat me like another friend,with half-assed interest.
I can't take being your friend. I'd much rather be no one than someone of little importance.


But truly,i wish I were the one haunting his dreams. I wish he would lose sleep thinking how to catch me. I wish he would crave my touch and melt at the sound of my voice.
I wish I were the one he wants. I wish he would be my first.
I wish it were mutual.

HELP I NEED SOMEBODY

Turns out the guy i like is single,funny,smart and....not interested in me.
Dammit.
Sucks to be me,i guess.
I have no idea how to get over him. Maybe mindria e de vina. Maybe faptul ca in sfirsit fac ceva progres si dupa un an trebuie sa las totul. Nu asta conteaza.
Conteaza ceea ca e ah-door-able af <3
Beautiful asshole. Dupa atitea momente mimimi trebuie sa las totul cind abia incepe.
#abidna#jizniboli
Nu am idee cum sa las. Nu am idee cum sa uit.
Dupa atitea incercari esuate nu stiu daca merita sa mai depun efort in a-l sterge din memorie.
Worse yet,i have to face  the man who's his spitting image daily. Ochii,zimbetul,miinile,vorbele,totul mi-a readus in memorie clipele petrecute linga el si inainte sa realizez imi puteati cinta smela "Nu plinge,Ana".
Я лох.
What now?
Nu am idee.
Nu pot sa las totul balta dupa cit am investit,dar nici sa continui nu prea are sens.
Pur si simplu nu am timp sa mai astept pina i se scoala ca vrea totusi sa fie cu mine. I'm going to Uni in a month, for fuck's sake! Dar sa anulez toata ideea dupa tot chinul...acum,cind a inceput a arata rezultate? Acum cind suntem mai apropiati? Cind se lupta pentru atentie si devine posesiv? Cind ma atinge si imi pronunta numele constant? Cind actually purtam discutii?
UGH
What should i scooby-dooby-doooooo?

well

As you might know, in a weird turn of events, the person i like turns out to be a man.
Da,da,foarte straniu pentru o fata heterosexuala sa fie interesata de un barbat...
Except he's 30. And I'm 17(almost 18).
Daca asta inca nu e destul de stupid...eu sunt foarte bravo si ma impiedic pe loc drept de propriile sentimente.


                                             YAY ME :|


Serios vorbind,realizez ca nu e persoana potrivita..
Dar inca mai serios vorbind - cind m-a oprit asta pe mine? ))
Soooo ce anume ma atrage? Hmmm...greu de spus :

• gusturi nice in muzica probabil
• nu nu,vocea placuta cu siguranta
• apparently strong hands mai degraba
• hateaaaa....as spune ca zimbetul extrem de adorabil <3
• nah..atitudinea fata de sine insusi si lucru
• ori stilul nice
• faptul ca e foooaaaarte sociabil
• a really nice butt
• yes,it's the fault of the butt for sure

It' round and pretty like a peach and I'm totally sounding like a pervert in here hehehe.
This amazing human works at a cafe i really love*(not because of him being there)**(or maybe because of him being there)***(you'll never know for sure :P)
And I'm trying my hardest not to go there.
Geee...i really hope this feeling lasts 'cause I' tired of not feeling anything.

Ohisashiburi

Hello fellow humans.
Sunt tot eu,Anna,doar cu vreo 3 ani mai mare dar nu face mare diferenta, eh?
In anii astia s-au intimplat destule interesante care pot fi rezumate la :

1.  Hello London,bye Moldova ( setembrie 2014)
2. Hello Moldova,bye London ( februarie 2015)
3. Crush-san confesses his undying love for me (martie 2015)
4. and gets rejected
5. A classmate also confesses his love and that's how i bury another friendship(master-klass de la Anna)         
6. Met my first love and got over him         
7. No-significant-romance-2016
8.  2017, why do I like a dude who's way too old for me?

Cam asta e. Suferinta, rock si mincare. Anii mei de fangirling inca continua desi ''the otaku me'' s-a ascuns si doarme undeva in adincurile sufletului meu negru.
AAAAH btw,anul asta examene din nou...geeeeez
I'll try to keep you updated until I'm at least 18 :D

jeez

Guys,guys,i think our society is rotting away at an incredibly ultra-mega-super fast speed.

Like, What The Fuck is actually happening to this world?

First,the Ukraine conflict and all the deaths,then the Ebola and, as if that wasn't enough, the Ferguson problem.

I am so done with everything.

Why does humanity even do this?

WHYYYYY?

Ehhh?

This actually happened yesterday,but i was far too excited to post it,hehe ^_^
So...
Remember when i said i would give up on crush-san? Forget it.
I mean,i wasn't serious from the very start,but still.....♥
Yesterday,during break time, he just randomly approached me(while i was sitting quietly at my desk,not bothering anyone) and decided to share with me his most important treasure......music.
Yep,at first i was like ''FTW?'',but then i heard some awesome instrumental song.......waaaah~
He said he's playing(guitar,for those who don't know) in a new band right now. HE also said they're having a concert on XX day and he said i could come for free if i wanted to...if i go it will be my very first rock concert..... (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧
Btw,i've caught a cold......and so has crush-san...
All Hail Anna!!!
I was waiting for 2 freaking months,wishing i would go home with him. ALONE.
I was trying to figure out some topics we could talk on and some questions.
And then, it happened (though i wasn't really happy,i hate being the second choice....).
We walked,talked and laughed....it was sunny and nice outside...maybe not that nice....not that nice at all...it was FREAKING HOT!
So,me,as a reaaaaallly nice person,suggested it's a bit too freaking hot to be wearing a leather jacket(he wears his leather jacket with Deep Purple always.....its soooo asdfghjkl;♥) he agreed and he took it off....that was only the start of my maniacally evil plan.
After 5 minutes of walking he was like ''Oh,i'm cold ....and it's tiring to carry it in my arms....i guess i'll wear it again'' and then i said something like ''Can i wear it,then?'' while looking up there with puppy eyes. And he randomly agreed and took my backpack(i have it instead of a normal school bag).

challenge accomplished (๑>ᴗ<๑)

It was like,totally not my size. I'm used to wear my dad's clothes,but they aren't this much of ''not my size''.
After more walking and chatting he asked when my birthday is,that's pretty unfair,because i planned to ask him about that)). And then he changed the topic to ''friends'' and that's doubly unfair because i planned to  do it.....Geez....he said he could be my friend and that i can trust him.

That's it.....an interesting day in Anna's boring life.☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
Thank you.
Goodbye.

Hell,yeah

Well,well....it's been a long time, huh?
I was starting to miss this blog,or maybe not  i was totally missing it))
Well,not as if there was something interesting going on in  my awfully boring life.
Still,i actually missed writing every idiotic thing i did, so that people i won't ever know would be able to read it.
This day was pretty good(considering how bad it started) and,yeah, i'm still trying to get over crush-san.....
I've exams this year,so it's kinda strict at school,but my friends still manage to make me have lots of fun.
So,let's move to the subject. I've decided i'm going to diet,like,i need to get this 10 kilos off of me in 2 weeks. That's impossible,right? But it won't hurt to try)))
Sooooooooo.......today was awesome. After school we went to Ma-kun's place(me,him and our cute Lena).
His house is huuuge and beautifuul.
And he made us eat. It was delicious. Y'know,i realised he has grown a lot when standing there. He already isn't that little guy i knew back then and i was shocked by that fact.
After leaving with Lena,we passed some guys who called us ''fat'' (and that's the story of me hating groups of people my age and ''how Anna decided t diet hard'') so i,to calm down started listening to death metal at 100%  with a great help from my earphones.
I was mad. SERIOUSLY MAD. But then i passed my neighbour and started the polite act. She told me her grandson was coming(and that's the story of me being happy today).
I was waiting for that lil' shit for 3 freaking years. I'm inexplicably happy now but i have to stop and put on the ''i don't care'' act.)))
My perfect poker face.
                   

                                          .   .   .

What about crush-san? He's in a hospital with a minor cold.

Yeah,not that i care.....*bad poker face*..............

Oh,and i'm watching Superatural)))

that's what i told him. I mean,i've got to let go,right? i can't be stuck in the past forever..

new semester

I'm back....well,i wasn't really gone,just lazy....sorry...

Well,i'm as single as forever,and just living with the hope that some beautiful day,when petals of sakura float in the air i'll magically meet someone who looks at me the way Haru looks at water))).

''So,after the long 'n tiring holiday  i'm finally going back to school.''  ← this certainly looked like a good idea before actually going.

In the very first day we changed classrooms and this one is cold,old and smelly....yeah.......-_-"

And that's not all, i've got 8 new classmates,that were absent in the first day because they were scared (what did they think? that we'd eat them?) . Today they came...only  5 of them, though...

Srsly?
Now i kinda wonder if we're really that scary)
well,let's make a quick description of each of them.
There are -- 2 girls

                    3 boys

One of the girls has my name (i'm Anna,btw),still not as awesome as me....she's only Ana...hohoho))

The other one has my sis' name (Christine).

Oh,i forgot to mention they all came from the countryside

The girls have the typical faces of country girls..............that doesn't really matter..........at least to me.

Ana looks like the quiet type(i do as well so...who knows?) and Christine is kinda....bitchy,that's only the first impression and i'm bad at judging people so don't blame me later if it turns out to be wrong.

And now...the most important......BOYS.

I know their names but i kinda don't want to write them because i don't know who is who....like, i know the name but i don't know which one of them that name belongs to.

So we'll have the traditional pseudonyms))) yay!

• The first one looks plain and kinda red,his height is average,and doesn't look like he's got really brilliant social skills or intelligence. We'll call him.....Ikkun.
• The second one has a really awesome monobrow, so we'll call him Monthy.
• And the third one is kinda tall (not as tall as crush-san,though) but he's got a horrible hairdo, and has a face that says ''I'M GAY,DO ME'' in all caps. That's why we were laughing uncontrollably when they came in the classroom. By the way,let's just call him Uke-chan xD

After taking a look at these guys i finally understood how manly are crush-san and Sasha and D-chan and Ma-kun(that's another friend of mine))))

Ahhh....i wonder what i should do to get along with guys....?

Please help me...somebody?

What to talk to them about?

How to talk to them?

Can't somebody explain me? PLease....

hmmm

It's been a while,huh?
I missed you (my dear blog xD)
I have toooons of homework and like,no time...
Btw,55 followers on tumblr)) thank you guys,you're sweet~♥
While we're still at it,thanks for reading my blog..though i know it's boring and consists of annoying fangirl thoughts.
My alredy-not-new-deskmate promised he's gonna find my blog,well let's see what you can)))
Really,he's underestimating me. Btw,about the other blog,i'm really sorry i haven't posted anything in a while,i promise to return soon and post something already =(
No time. No money. No   Exams
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''It was like a nightmare and it's painful for me
'Cause nobody wants to die too fast...''

I have so much work to do and i'm just sitting and writing here,hoping for a miracle to happen out of the blue....well,that's just me =))
Lolz and i have an awful lot of shows i wanna watch, i'm like in that fandom,and that fandom,and that fandom too, that fandom? yep,i'm in it,oh and the other fandom,and there there's still one more fandom,and another fandom after that,but y'know i'm in that fandom a well,and i'm either in that fandom and that fandoooooom...... infinite fandomness))
Soooooo,how about hanging out with a fangirl?

Btw,i found a post quote post on tumblr that said:
 “date a girl who reads yaoi”
—   abraham lincoln

That old geezer knows his shit lol xD

fate

We changed seats. Amin.
No,really, i have another desk mate now,and sadly he's a no-megane =(
Lol,when did i get so into megane anyways?
At least this desk mate is smart....probably.....
And,geez....i'm at the last desk,again....why the hell? When i tried so hard not to back to that seat....geezus..... the ones i feel sad about are crush-san and Sasha...they got separated....Their pure,strong love will never melt though))))
they wre having such sad looks in their eyes,i thought they were about to cry any moment now...

i wanna kill that teacher,for separating me and my cute Lena))

info

i have a guy in my class that looks a lot like Eren)))
the same eyes,the same skin colour,the same hair(just a bit shorter)
he's always laughing.
and yesterday i started laughing in the middle of the lesson when he called his best-friend-desk mate a ''horse face'' no one understood why i was laughing,but well,i'm a fujoshi otaku,deshou? xD

lolz

Seriously,i can't say many interesting things happened today.....except having good grades)) and cute moments with my friends,and being asked by crush-san(really,i have to stop calling him that) to go home with them,and accepting,and having a fun time,and he,the guy who never was enough of a gentleman to carry a girl's bag,just casually took it from my hands an carried it))) That was fun,hearing him complain about how heavy it was...i can't blame him,i had 3 REAAAAALLYYYY big books there (ca niste dictionare) and 7 different books and 11 copy-books and some things i just bring along(don't need them though)... i'm thankful he was kind enough to carry them xD....lol))
It was fun on  hte way back home,thank God i moved schools (:

machigerita

mite mite,machigerita cintaaaaaa))

desene

Dupa cum am promis,desenele mele  (sorry ca le pun asa tirziu)

Si bonusul (desenele lui crush-san pt mine :">)

 

duminica

Hey))
Asa o zi...geez.....mi-am schimbat dash-ul pe tumblr,arata mai.....ummm.....










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Lol...imi place xD si blog-ul l-am schimbat,care vrea sa vada,il am in pagini acolo sus ↑
Oh,well...miine la scoala))
Succes mie ^_^

BNP

Watching Boku No Pico)))
Dafuq is up with this opening? And the start of the anime......H? They know how to make the fangirls watch it xD

one word

My ENTIRE today can be described in one word....

   WTF?

Really,i woke up late and didn't get to eat any breakfast,then i realized i was really late so i had to run and catch a bus(and i was left with about 5 lei). Finally arrived at school in time. And when i was reading,crush-san just came and patted me on the head.....i was like WTF?

The first two lessons were more or less boring(with Sasha being bad at making dirty jokes,and showing us all a condom from his pocket). At biology the teacher said we'll have chemistry not history on the exam.

The third lesson was French,and i didn't have to do it so we were at the cafeteria.

There i met my old classmates and we laughed,talked and hugged. In the end they left and again,2 guys (my 100th cousin and Pet/ru) patted me on head too,so again i was like WTF?

Then we had Russian,and i've got 8 so again WTF?

At history the teacher said that the exam will be at history not chemistry and again i was like WTF?

And we didn't do the Romanian lesson because the tacher was absent,and i have learned that damn poem all night long.......WTF?

I'm so dead....